Dancing by Myself

I just looked at my facebook friends list-299.  I always say I don't know anybody but I only friend those I know.  Way cool !  The other way cool and super fine , feelin' groovy part to that is - all those 299 people had to friend me back to be on my list.  299 that is a big Wow to me.  If you asked me I would say I don't even know 299 people, much less feel like they are friends but I went thru the list-yep, yep, I know her,  I remember where I met him, Oh yeah- I remember you !  Towards the end of my marriage and after I had to make a conscious decision to do things with me, myself and I.  It took much determination for me to get out by myself.  The thought of growing old alone with no possibility of parole-oh no-not for me-it was time to suck it up and realize life is full of change and to be happy, do fun stuff and have new adventures well,  I have to make it happen.    I will never forget the first movie I went to alone-That remake with John Travolta and Christopher Walken-Hairspray.  It felt so awkward in line with all those couples and 'girls nite out' groups.  It was really weird looking for a seat.  I panicked and walked almost blindly and just sat in a seat.  I think it took a few minutes for me to even look around.  So silly when I look back on it but that was really a huge, gigantic, swallow my pride, just keep my head up and act like this happens every day, cause I can Do This moment.  When the kids were grown and I started to go out to adult places (neighborhood bar) it was the same thing but multiplied by about ten hundred million.  Once again , hold my head up, look people in the eye (even though I would never remember the face due to hysterical blindness) radiate confidence-some 5 years or so later here I am.  Going to movies, stopping for a cold one, hey I own the juke box!  I am having so much fun and have actually met new people and made new friends.  I even dance by myself cause I love to dance and usually when I do, others join in.  They were just waiting so they did not have to dance alone.  I am not waiting.  Have a Happy Thursday !  kisses